Doesn't he know the word sorry?

It's amazing when people try to answer a question which clearly required a yes/no answer with sort of or maybe.
What does that mean? and thats exactly what I asked, and he chose to say yes.

It's strange I trust him and think its just talk then look what happens, and unless he said something I would never have known. Who knows how many times it happened?

An explanation or sorry would be nice because the way I see it that doesn't just happen, you have to decide to do it.

Strange even after he got me pissed I didnt do the typical turn my back to him and fall asleep. I probably actually snuggled and spooned with him.
And another time after we had sex I gave him a practically full body massage.

What is this? I swear I don't even know myself anymore.

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Aside from the above issue:
I have no idea why I confided in him. I usually deal with stuff on my own esp. stuff that people can't help me with ie you can't make the situation better or help so why involve you in my misery?

I guess I was panicked so he was the 1st person I called and now that I've had a chance to really think he is going to be the only person I call about that problem. And I STILL can't believe I called him.

Its strange just this week I was thinking I need someone to lean on, depend on and open up to, trust- ie I want not need - a boyfriend. I was going to call a guy I met but with new situations I basically deleted his number. You can't add uncertainty on top of chaos. I'll just keep it simple and open up here.

It's tough though to have friends and family and still feel alone.

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BTW why does my ex always ask me about my sex life. I know he doesn't really want to know and I don't like being a liar cuz I know he would blow a gasket at the truth.

Why why why does he ask?

What am I to say the 2 persons you are paranoid about well I've had sex with them one of them I've said I love you to.

So when you ask if me and the guy were dating what am I supposed to say.
I've had sex in the past 6months and haven't been dating so who am I supposedly having sex with?
Ans: Some cowboy that rides into town once a year that I drop my panties immediately to have sex with. How do I explain that?
Ans: Obviously someone that I know from before.
Who? do I know him?
I know thats where this convo is going because if I haven't been dating for the year (fact) then who have I gotten to know so well that I've decided to have sex with them?

What do I do?