Lonely tired defeated

All these words describe my life right now

I grab rays of happiness when I can, but its not often enough for me

Where do responsibility and life intersect.

It's like in the pursuit of career job etc its mutually exclusive to life and love.

I am always separated from anyone that I love...Is it that I am unable to love so I seek after the unattainable and physically distant or is it just my unlucky draw?

It weird that I feel that I need someone to love, because I feel that I am a self-sufficient person. But, I really dont feel anyone is really looking out for me.
Yea I know that you care but you live miles and oceans away how can you really help me if things are horrible?

Alone in this bed looking at Talk Sex with Sue Johannsen and finding out everything my mom never told me about sex.

:( :( :(
Sigh