the Summer Anthem

Read dese lyrics here, his swagger is soo sexy I luv an aggressive guy:
T.I. - Why you wanna

[Chorus]Go and tell a nigga no, wit a ass so fat
Hey why you wanna go and do that love, huh
Hey-Hey why you wanna go and do that, do that
Hey-Hey why you wanna go and do that-that-that
In a relationship been faithful to a nigga so whack
Hey why you wanna go and do that love, huh
Hey-Hey why you wanna go and do that, do that
Hey-Hey why you wanna go and do that-that-that..aye-aye

[T.I.]
Can't help but notice how you glowing, I can see in yo face
Now I just wonder if he know he close to being replaced
Swear I treat you like a queen you put me in his place
So you can give back his ring and the key to his place
Tell the nigga one thing that you need yo space
Selling niggaz is one thing you don't need to chase
I wanna kiss you everywhere between yo knees and waist
Hear the sounds that you makin, get yo knees to shake
Holla at me in the A, you feel you need to escape
I gotta mansion and a gate, you wit me you safe
A Benz, a Phantom and a truck wit 23's the case
600 Gz in the safe, how much cheese it take?
This a chance you need to take, ain't no need to wait
Say the word we can leave today, this song's special
And it feel like faith, make a mistake
How the same thing making you sad I'm making you stay

[Chorus][T.I.]
I can't touch you like that, and make you make you feel likethis
Holla if you came back and it's still like this
Do he hit it from the back and make you feel it yo chest
Take advantage of what your concealing in yo dress
What, he think he too fresh to show that you the best
Compliment you on your intellect and treat you wit respect
Give you sex till you sweat, tongue kissing on yo neck
It's been awhile since she got it like this I bet
I can tell you ain't just another bitch I met
Ain't nobody got me open like this, not yet
You confused ain't decided which way you should go yet
So how you keep sayin no with yo panties so wet

[Chorus][T.I.]
This nigga playing mind games man
I think the time came, that you mind changed you understand
Life is like a chess move, you need to make yo next move
Yo best move, keep it pimpin' you understand...hey
I mean you know what I'm sayin I don showed you how I feel
You know what I'm sayin, I put myself all the way out there youknow
The ball in yo court man, but I just got a question for you...
Is you happy??

Dis is ma summer jam
Usually I agree wit d whole "doan trouble trouble unless trouble trouble you"BUT I am soooooooooooo ready for my summer fling...
Still waiting

So I posted the above on a forum I frequent on Wednesday and today look at what happened.
So today I am walking home and I get a holla from a jeep. Now this is quite a feat as I am blasting my ipod mini as usual...I thought he was hollering but he was so insistent I thought maybe its directions he needs so I take out my earphones.

Him: I wanna know if I can talk to you
Me: Go ahead
Him: I'd like to get to know you, can I talk to you?
Well since earlier this week I've been telling myself I'm ready for a summer fling so I figure I need to be a lil more open. So I oblige and he pulls over.
So I get straight to the point.

Me: So you were just driving in this area and decided to stop me?
Him: Well I just came from a friends place and saw you walking by yourself and wanted to talk to you
Me: How long were you trying to get my attention
Him: Since you were on the other street before you turned the corner. So where are you going?
Me: Home
Him: Near here, do you want a ride?
Me: Laugh) are you serious? I don't want you to know where I live, I don't know you.
Me: Oh.... So what made you want to talk to me?
Him: You are attractive and I just thought it would be nice to get to know you.
Me: What are you about?
Him: What do you mean?
Me: Do you work, are you in school, what are your goals? Stuff like that. I'm not usually so abrupt, but why would it be worth my while to talk to you?
Him: I work..what about you? You go to ________
Me: yeah I'm in school
Him: What are you studying?
Me: ______
Him: how old are you?
Me: You answer first lemme see if you are in my age range
Him: ___________
Me: Ok I'm _____ too
Him: perfect match
Me: so what really made you stop?
Him: You looked like you were coming from school I like that it shows that you have goals
Me: so you like girls with backpacks? ...alluding to the Beenie Man song implying that he just likes young/jailbait girls (mind you I have a kinda Puma hobo bag not a backpack in anycase I think the reference was lost on him)
No: You just look like you were coming from classes etc.
Me: well actually school is closed its summer time (lol I am so rude)
Me: ok well I need to get home give me your # I'll call you
I take the number
Me: So your wife won't mind me calling you
He laughs
Him: I'm young , I have no wife, girlfriend etc
Me: ...and your kids won't mind some new girl intruding on their daddy time?
he laughs again
Me: I mean can you blame me...this looks a little mini-van-ish
Him: I have no kids in this country or elsewhere what about you do you have any kids.
Me: no
Him: so when can I expect your call
Me: well not tonight I'm hanging out tonight
Him: With your girlfriends
I take a calculated pause (playing games)
Me: ummm yeah my girlfriends
Oh ummm whats ur name?
Him: _______
Me: Is that your real name or your "american name"
his eyes widen
Him: oh you know the deal thats funny but yeah thats my real name everyone knows me as ____
Ok so whats your name?
Me: Taj :)
aight bye I will call. I am so surprised he tolerated my attitude probing questions, and assumptions he didn't stall on any of the other questions I asked him like How long he thinks it would take for him to get to fuck me....LOL that took him by surprise...but I am blunt when I dont care...I mean you are tryna pick me up offa the street...what are your expectations...

And because I am suspicious as hell even though I am 1/2 a block away from home I divert my route to the cornerstore and buy some stuff I had no intention of buying just to be safe.
who knows if I'll call. I sure as hell don't but I wanna go on a date. I wanna be treated nice. I wanna be listened to...I know you listen (blog) I have to think up a cute name for my blog...Hmmm maybe Willie as in Wilhelmina my almost real name.
Ok so back to the story I probably will call him as for lack of options besides if I dont then everyone will remain a stranger...I mean before my friends were my friends they were strangers...actually thats not totally true at least I could get a referral about them cuz someone else knew them before me so I wouldn't be going totally from scratch anyway.

Hmmm I wonder what made him stop maybe he spied my newly acquired tongue ring and figured "an educated dick sucker...imma get me some ah dat". Hmmm I dint catch his gaze wandering unduly to my mouth or breasts so who knows.

After this although the logic is severely flawed ie cause/effect: because one factor is either absent or present its said to be the cause of something ie after a long period of drought torrential rainfall occurs the day you decide to walk inside backwards from the car. So my fallacy, I can't remember the exact name of this one...you know like how there is slippery slope etc....anyway today I wore heels. Not super high but heels nonetheless no ballet flats and I wore my hair up away from my face...now if I had worn my contacts I would have said that was it, cuz I dont think I look attractive in my glasses at all. So I looked nice but simple..slim leg jeans and a Radical Designs green tee...It's like when I'm in clothes I think I have a banging body but when I'm naked I see so much room for improvement (Tangent!)

Ok so today before all of this chance meeting etc. It really was chance if something didn't happen before and keep me back I would not have been walking right there when he was there.

So my friend with the dj guy (discussed in my other blog) basically gave it up too soon between money issues, him avoiding hanging with her friends, ore even attending the same party as her far less...and his being available to hang Mon-Thurs then MIA Fri-Sun she thought yea we fucked but we are cool we can be friends. Well not entirely so and so the age old story goes. Nice girl fucks too quick then really understands the meaning of screwed...And guys talk about wanting an assertive girl they wont think anything less of a girl if they have sex the first night...but then again thats not usually the girl that they want a relationship with.

Lemme check my files...yep I agree with that. No one I've fucked outside of us having a relationship has wanted anything serious...but thats fine I entered it with no such expectations of stuff growing into more.
My friend had sex with someone I never even met...that's sad, I know she thought it could have been something positive.

Well I'm a few months into being celibate. My cut buddy doesn't know he has been retired , expired whatever...I guess that's partly my fault...he asked whether "I don't feel for him" and I'm like no not yet...so he's like "are we never going to have sex again?" and because of that cliched phrase "Never say never" I say no don't say never ,it possible even though in my head I really don't want do ever again...then he tries to entice me talking about he never lifted me up and fucked me against the wall that is great and all that BS and we have an hr long phone convo where he tries to initiate phone sex (what is it about guys me and phone sex) and now I understand the phrase "...begging for poomz" having finally experience it I understand...being that this was my first experience with it does that mean I'm kinda pathetic that of all the people I've had sex with only one has begged for sex...does that mean I give it up too easy...lol oh no I'm simply defined as "assertive" by the guy that may be on the receiving end....ah the power of words to ease or placate a potentially guilty conscience.


Oh very briefly, I've had so many experiences in life that cause me to be wary of new ppl in my life. So briefly money is tight these days and I haven't gotten my paycheck yet..so I try to spend as little as possible on food ie. my big meal for the day...lunch..My new co-worker female wants us to go to lunch together at the same time but she is tired eating all the same "cheap" stuff that is near where we work so she suggests we go somewhere X that sells lunch upwards of $8, I politely refuse and when she presses me I'm just honest and say Im not willing to spend that much on lunch...so she is like if that wasn't a factor would you go....well with some trepidation I'm like yea sure ....so she's like ok it's settled, I'm gonna buy you lunch.. I protest a few times but she is insistent
Well when we get there and see the prices I'm just offer to pay for myself but she refused and ends up spending $25 for both lunches.

Now I am a open person and I don't judge perhaps thats why I still associated with a friend that obviously looked butch....everyone asked me if she was gay and I would say no despite the physical indicating otherwise. Fact is she is gay and and probably dreamt of munching on my carpet.

So now anytime a somewhat androgynous female is extra nice to me my hackles are up about their motive...mind you I'm always the first person to roll my eyes at "that person" that thinks EVERYONE wants them, is trying to hit on them etc...but I'm paranoid now. I really am.
We got let off from work early this other day and I decided I was goin to the movies...she talked about going too, I kept quiet cause my intention was to have the poor, dateless, girl movie experience a la bringing in outside refreshments, paying for one movie but viewing as many as I wanted...C'mon I can't appear that cheap to a practical stranger.
So the next day she asks if I saw Da Vinci and I'm like yea I went to XYZ theatre she's "by yourself". I said, "affirmative," she' like I know I should have asked you. I just figured you seem like the type of person to have your people you go to the movies with. Totally deadpan I say, "well I have no friends". that ws the biggest mistake cuz I think she believed me. stupid stupid stupid Taj.

Coupled with that my lez friend calls to inform me that our mutually loosely called friend has decided that she is bisexual. It was at the tip of my tongue to ask if she thought she had a chance with her (Angel black/white with the body of a thick sister but with blonde hair blue eyes and light skin) but I quelled the impish urge it simply wasn't worth it. My thing is that this girl was bedding mainly guys onlathleic teams ie footballers and the like somehow I think she just got burned and bitter against men...not that she can't be bisxual if she wants to but I feel it's coming from a different place...Then this asshole calls to tell me yet another has been converted to the Sapphic (sp) order. Bloodcleeet I see lesbians. I see lesbians all day.....................Sigh


Yeah I prob should have broken this up into multiple posts to not make it seem so daunting but neway I do what I want Capise.