The not quite right d!ck

From the past few posts you can tell that I've been in a funk...that's what the "not quite right dick" can do to a girl. It makes you erase every remembrance of good dick that you have had in the past. It seriously kills memory and sex drive. Being that I don't have a great memory exact details of a glorious past are probably not going to come back but the little things that cause your spine to tingle and send flashing contractions and twinges down there occur occasionally. I may be on my way back never to go down that road again.

Back to my plans. How sweet is it that someone calls just to hear your voice. People just won't understand how much I appreciate that. See thats what I mean as often as you think of me....call me or jus more than 1x a month.

Hope is so important in life but right now it's hope that is killing my spirit. At the start of every week I 'hope' that you will call to say when you can visit, so I drudge though the week bound by obligation and necessity eagerly anticipating Friday when maybe you will call b/c you were trying to surprise me....no dice once again, and again , and again, and again.
Is the "not quite right dick" so bad if it helps to numb you to another hurt...does the end justify the means. And I write this in my blog and I am brought back to the hurt place I despise and am trying to avoid.
Sigh nothing is working.
Until something new is realized I guess I'll be stuck here. Yea it's not smart to get over someone by finding someone new but seriously for me I know it will work.

FUCK YOU
yea i shout it to the sky and no one hears least of all you but at least i'm venting cuz this has been fermenting way too long : (