Why do I invest so much in people I have no forseeable future with...this is hard, you know everyone has their "thing" their hangup in life. For one friend her mantra is "People don't change," she learned this from her parent's relationship, another person is sick of ppl looking at her like her life is golden - judging her "apparent" naivety and me my hangupS are (yea I had to have more than one main one) distance and people leaving me...I guess it one cos they leave me thereby creating the distance. That's why I break up with you rather than do the long distance relationship, that's why if a friend has to move away I just sorta lose contact....but the thing is I want you but for reason's other than distance US is still a problem. Why does my life have such fucked up timing Why?
Well we are working towards something, I hope it works. I hope for my sanity it works. Even though its fresh with you I can't take yet another failed visit

The planning has begun, thanks for being a man and making the effort. {thumbs up}