JayP

Jaypella de gyul dem fella. (Smile) cute That became your DJ name. So many things I found cute about you. Funny how things don't turn out how you expect them to. Excuse my rambling ppl I guess I blog when I'm bored, lonely or can't sleep. We had a lot of firsts together more you than me 2nd kiss, 1st blow job, 1st time sex, first time sex in a public place, 1st time PdA when I grabbed you and kissed you with tongue on the street :-) the good days. also the 1st girl to cheat on you. You couldn't wait could you? couldn't you give me the time to reconcile my past before we moved on? I guess your impatience and other circumstances prevented this so I moved on without addressing certain things and yes those things bit our relationship in the ass. He pre-existed....Is that cheating? It was me and him before me and u, an unfinished me and him. Sigh I hate what ifs but I think that both of you will forever be a big What If in my life.
In one of my online chatrooms the question was asked: Committed, Single, Dating, Celibate?
Well I answered all of the above:
Committed to my ex b/c I can't find anyone to move on with
Single I have no boyfriend
Dating but not really since I dont wanna just have a fuck buddy
Celibate since I have no boyfriend but with the occasional vibrator use

I thought I would get laughed at but at least 2 ppl quoted my response, and being completely honest, they used it as their response to the question. How about that.
Sigh, I just depressed myself. I need to just drink a lil rum and send my ass to sleep.