Sigh

I have had dreams where I wake up in my dream to a snake in my bed. I'm tense, and my palms are cold and my heart is pounding yet I pick the snake up go to the back door and set it free outside. I have had that dream and it still isn't my worst. The one that makes my heart cold nad jerks me awake is this. One of my worst recurring dreams is getting a phone call that my ex has committed suicide. Gruesome right. I have no reason why I would dream something like that and I try to keep in contact as much as I can. He has by no means made me think that he is suicidal but I know that he is unhappy with some of the things in his life. Worse yet his dad committed suicide when he was about 10. On the day he died his dad was supposed to pick him up from his aunts house for them to go out and spend time together. The time came and went and he got so pissed he was so mad and upset at his dad but that was the day that he chose to kill himself. I worry for him for his health for his young son and his baby mama issues. I really wish I had the means to help more.