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Ok I guess to some ppl I am an impatient person....of course I don't think I am.

I don't like being a nag and I definitely don't like being ignored.
I am not trying to give an ultimatum I just needed to know.
So I have and I am gonna continue living my life for me.

I know what I want... I know what I would prefer for myself but it's inaccessible now and indefinitely so I'll proceed with a clear head and clear conscience... I tried it didn't work. That's life. It just reminds me not to depend on that one thing too much...never to want anything in particular cuz as usual I probably won't get it.


I woke up this morning at 9AM and I thought of you.
I woke up and thought about having sex with you, you touching and kissing me.
I woke up this morning wanting you.
It lasted for a while - just thinking of you.
It lasted for a while then started to think about just wanting to have sex.
Then I just got cold thinking of the last time we had sex.
Then I realized that I am being pushy can't just wasn't recognizing your soft no.

Life is difficult when instinct tells you one thing yet the words and actions of the person tell two different stories....What you want to believe, what they want you to believe, and the truth.