He was never my friend. When I gave him my blog address that was death. I confided in him because he would be easy to cut off if I needed to ever ignore him or get him out of my life. And the funny thing is he said he cares but if I asked him to never call again he would do just that. Apart from my 2nd boyfriend I have never given someone so many opportunities to hurt me; not by words but definitely through dissappointment via lack of action. Libras are usually my friends I should have know not to try to make romantic overtures towards one. Exactly what attracts me to them as friends is exactly what annoys me about him. This romance wasn't even aborted or still born cuz it never even had an opportunity to catch afire. Of course it was fire in bed but I'm a girl, a girl that has been abandoned at many points in her life and sex is really not enough.
I never have a response if someone likes me because I've realized deep down that I think if a father cannot show love towards a daughter, reach out and make an effort then why do you want to. I am unloved by someone who is bound even if by duty to show me love and they haven't. When I say my father doesn't love me i don't me that he beat me etc. but by his actions or lack thereof I feel unloved.
If I got really anal I could tally the number of days I have ever seen my father's face and then extrapolate the number of hours that I have been face to face with him. I don't think I have ever heard the words I love you, I miss you, I am sorry.
What I am typing here this is what I am ashamed to let any boyfriend, husband see b/c its weak and needy and this is exactly why I push people away; Female friends, boyfriends etc.