Eureka

Enlightenment!
I just realized why I just flip out when people say they have been observing me... I think it's because it seems like a perv like a molester lurking around for the perfect opportunity to make their move.
As a child I have seen this face this expression of openness and directness with the subterfuge...with the mask of vice lurking just behind it...the shifty gaze the testing of the waters to decipher whether the rope is taut enough to support the gravity of their act....to push the enveloppe and not be found out....the ability to keep it a secret and quench that burning.....

That side of life is so ugly...being watched feels just as bad as being touched....and it doesn't even feel logically fair to say that...even I can acknowledge that.

Yes you may read this and think I am making a bigger deal of it than I should, and maybe you are right...and maybe I may actually agree with that.

SMH I know I am gonna read this tomorrow and want to delete it.
This is the last one for today...Nitey nite.