I know and I understand BUT

I know it hurt but I just couldn't / didn't want to tell you about my blog. I didn't want to tell you because I knew that you would judge and I was already judging myself very harshly for my decisions...I was already going through such a period of change and uncertainty I didn't need another opinion, another disagreement about the stuff that I wrote on here that I wanted to vent about, laugh about, be happy about, be depressed about.

I didn't want you to have to read about me having sex with other people and enjoying it...or even having a fuck buddy b/c the girl that you deflowered wasn't into casual sex, wasn't into having sex to soothe a horny itch.

It's complicated the things that I do and the reason's that I give for doing them.
There is one constant...It's that I always love you and will be honest with you when you approach me about stuff.

So I'm in hiding once more and I hope you have learnt your lesson and NOT try to be persistent.